Saturday, April 30, 2011

Another gift

Alma  the name is pronounced AL-mah. It is of Latin, Italian, Hebrew and Arabic origin,
the meaning of Alma is "nourishing, kind; soul; young woman; learned". Also the name of a river in the Crimea where the famous 19th-century Battle of Alma was fought. "Alma mater" is the term for a college or university, meaning "fostering mother".

This is also the name of my Grandmother. I was surprised to find her name is the perfect name for a Grandma. I did not know my granma well. She raised me till age 4. But I do know she loved me very much.

I would like for you to really look at the painting I did and just imagine giving your self the love of a nurturing, loving grandma. Feel the tingle of warmth from a healing hug. Her dress is made of fuzzy warm cotton balls. She feels like your favorite teddy bear or warm soft blanket. I myself can feel the energy of this love. Being a Grandma my self. There is no deeper love, or kindness that can be transferred. The thought of being loved by grams is so healing. It is something I never felt for my self till now. I know what it is like to give this nurturing kindness to the grand kids. I also know the joy of play. You do things with the grand kids that you would have never thought of doing with your own. Mostly because you have already been there and done that. And no longer have the fear or worries you had with your own kids. You have the wisdom to share what is really important in life. But just to imagine receiving that love your self is so powerful it is hard to explain. You have to just imagine and hug your self. 
I am very proud of the results of my cards. If you feel any of them speak to you more than the one I made for you. Please feel free to take a copy for your own personal use. 

I really feel every one should have a copy of this one. 
But I made this especially for Amelia.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

A gift for Wendy

Celeste as a girl's name is pronounced seh-LEST. The meaning of Celeste is "heavenly" stars in heaven, celestial, divine, celestial bliss. Celestial eye.  It is of Latin origin, Celeste is the saint of all who make a wish on the first star of the evening.It can be both male or female name.
The masculine form Celestin was the name of five popes, the first one in AD 422.
A Poem for Celeste
Wish upon a star
tell me where you are
sit upon my knee
and I will help you see
Set down your grief and turn over a leaf
For your destiny is beneath the sky
Even though you are going to fly
I am here to guide while you ride
and forever be called to your side.

So look up to the sky
I will be with the stars
I am never very far away
you can speak to me any way
for I love to help you through your day
We will both learn to play.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Self talk

The challenge for this week Rae chose the topic of  Self-love.

This is one subject that I really never gave much thought to. Most of my life, I just went with the flow. As a kid most of my issues were from other kids making comments that were hurtful. But I think my mind did not take them to extremes.  
I did have insecurity's of the way I walked and my teeth.I had some hurt feelings when criticized by others. I pretty much would hang around older people. Ones who I felt were not mean at heart. To me now. This was self preservation.
By living this way my out look was neutral. I was just normal.
I never dated anyone my own age because I required respect. And a bit of maturity.

I can not say, I had self love. Only self respect. I accepted the fact I could not change my teeth. So I did not smile much. I find even to this day I think about dentures. So My teeth will fit together better. I have an over bite, and only 2 areas where food can be chewed properly. So this thought is for function more than looks.
 After I married, I did not care what others had to say any more. I just went on with life. Looking back now. I see I should have had more self awareness and confidence. But I am happy, I did not have any negative phobias.

I can see how some people look in the mirror and do not see them self correctly.  I have seen a TV show on bulimia. Where they really do look in the mirror and see an extra 100 pounds on there 90 pound body. Also I have seen some people look in the mirror and see a male body, when they are in a female body. To me this proves how powerful your mind can be at telling you lies. It is kinda like self hypnosis. Example: If you told your self over and over that your skin is purple. One day you will look in the mirror and see you are purple.
It is an allusion, but you believe it to be true.

To me this all sums up to it is all in your mind.
I have a friend that still sees me as skinny. They do not see I am a size 18 now. So I can tell this applies to how other people view you also. Once I had to stand on a scale to prove to a friend I am not a light weight. To me this shows she is so into her feeling over weight. That she sees others being smaller than her. It is kinda like deranged vision.

I find it is hard for me to judge age. I still see with the eyes of a younger adult, who now need reading glasses. I also am critical of photos taken of me. When I look at them a year later and see they are not as bad as I though at that time.
It takes some serious self talk to get your mind to let you see you are OK. The ego mind seems to be a trouble maker, kinda like the kids I did not like when I was younger.
I caught my ego mind, telling me last week, "Those guys think you are old. etc. I quickly said shut up!" to my self and sorta growled silently. My mind then let go of its plan.
I found the best thing to do is when you hear, You look old, you look fat, etc. I just say "WHAT EVER" It keep my mind from going on even deeper. It dismisses the hurtful self talk. And I do find the affirmation " You are perfect just the way your are " to be healing.
  Most of all I find the practice of removing all judgment to be the best way for me.  But over all I am happy with my self. My leg arms hands do there job. And adding gratitude I am happy that I have a body that lets me experience life. So I am thankful the vesicle I was given at birth dose what it is meant to do. And that task is live, love, and enjoy. Go with the flow of life.

Friday, April 22, 2011


Luke is very reliable, responsible & kind.  He has allot of quality's I have had most of my life. I gave him a clown costume as he is a suit and tie kind of guy. But he is a  workaholic.  So I had to give him a taste of fun,  He can also be a nurse, so he may be good for your health. He is for me. So I had a bit of thought. I really like the new version of me. I may be a bit more slack than I was in my younger days. I just know now. Life should be more than work. There needs to be balance. But what I can see from getting this card for me. I do need to regain a bit more control of my life. And prepare for a changing future.
I do need to put music back into my life.  I love the creative artsy side. But I just need a push. I have responsibility overload syndrome.  I am responsible for every thing.  And some times wish for some one else to take on some of the load.
But I find now that I can see my thoughts more clearly now. I have learned not to judge good or bad. A thought is just a thought. Act on it or let it go. I have had some insecurity's but find it is only my mind judging. It is my ego holding on to things that have been said or done. It is my need for love. That has caused my feeling alone. But I find when you let go of mind chatter and let your true self take control of your mind. Nothing is an issue. Nothing is a problem. So This card should be good for me. As I am now wise enough to decide what is a need or desire. I do not have may desires. I have always put needs first.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Gift to Angela

Elfrida , a girl's name is pronounced el-FREE-dah. It is of Old English and Old German origin, some of the meaning's are  "elf, magical counsel,, being noble strength".   "white,  bright light ". "peaceful".English: Good counselor or Sage
From the Old English name Ælfþryð meaning "elf strength". Oracle
German: Peaceful ruler,Gift of wisdom
Teutonic: Threatens the elves
The name Alfreda has 55 variant forms of spelling changes. 
Ailsa \a(i)-lsa, ail-sa\ as a girl's name is of Old Norse origin, and the meaning of Ailsa is "island of Alfsigr". Place name: the tiny Scottish rocky islet Ailsa Craig in the estuary of the river Clyde. Alfsigr is a personal name meaning "elf or magical victory". Use as a given name has been influenced by Ealasaid, the Gaelic form of Elizabeth (Hebrew) "God's promise". The name may also be used as a homonym for Elsa".Origin: Hebrew
Meaning: Consecrated to god Noble & Cheerful Contributor - Responsible, careful, conventional and reliable

Ailsa is here to help you see through different eyes.
We are all uniquely different, but our heart & true spirits are all the same. She will help you see you are complete and perfect just the way you are. She will show you that the difference between a weed and a flower is your judgment.
You may wonder why she is a twin, with 2 names. She will not introduce you to Elfrida till she feels she has done her job. Because like some, she will not just open up to you till she knows and trusts you fully. She is a teacher, Mom, Councilor. She will guide you to the realm of self knowledge, self love, and how to release judgment.  At this point you will meet Elfrida, When she knows you will unconditionally, accept her with out judgment. 
Elfrida, you will find is one of deep wisdom. She is council to the Elf community. She teaches them to be happy with them self. They are different because they are magical. She also keeps there tricks at bay. So this is why they have some fear of her. She to has Mother quality. She makes them recite both day and night, "I am a valuable sacred soul. She creates balance in responsibility and fun. She teaches harmony and love of all. She will share all of this with you too. Only if you are willing to search and learn. Follow clues. And accept your self unconditional. Because she knows you can not love her if you judge her.
In the end you will question. Is this really 2 people or just one, The first is there in a form that will not really make you wonder if she is normal. But the second hides nothing.
But you see they both have the same spirit. They are both your best friend. And will help you through the most difficult of challenges. Because they know when you find your true self. You will know all is well, and as it should be. And you will be free of life's baggage.
Please let me know if you find they are one or two? And which one is the real one ?

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Another gift

Serena is a girl's name is pronounced ser-REE-nah. 
It is of Latin origin. The meaning of the name Serena is 'Serene, composed, peaceful, cheerful, calm, clear, tranquil.

Serena is very cheerful and wise.
She can help you see through lies

Her peaceful presence, restores your calm clear composure. She points the way and saves the day. 
She tells you to breath, relax and meditate your issues away.
She gets out her broom and clears the chatter from your mind.
If that don't work she evicts your room mate. :)
She dose not speak much, so she make the perfect replacement.
Because tranquility in thought is amazing.
She reminds you a thought is just a thought, till you decide to make it part of your life. So let them flow.

She whispers think happy & be happy in your ear.
Make your self laugh for no reason It is healing.
But most of all She want you to live a life full of peace.
This card is for ?

Saturday, April 16, 2011

A gift

 I created this card for phoenix
Zoe is a form of ballance
She will cool you down when you are hot.
Warm you up when your not.
She will hug you when your sad.
And slug you when your mad. :)
It won't hurt, she is such a flirt.
But most of all she is your best friend.
Because she is always looking over you.

Her job is to teach you to chill
And remind you there is no need for a pill
She will teach you to love your self
If you do not listen she will put you on a shelf
She is here to see that you live the life you were meant to.
She will pave the way every day.
For her magic is great. Because she loves you mate.

Zoe as a girl's name is pronounced ZOH-ee, ZOH. It is of Greek origin,
and the meaning of Zoe is "life".
In Japanese Zoe Means Uniquely Different
Zoe; The act of being grand, wonderful, perfect. Other related words are, cool awesome amazing.

Sunday, April 3, 2011


I have been searching for answers and I do find clues. On this web site I took the test there for link: YOUR PSYCHIC TYPE
The answer for me was 
B................... You tend toward being an emotional intuitive.  You travel the path of the heart.  You can have an innate sensitivity to the emotional states of others.  You will receive psychic intuition/information through your emotions via intense feelings that cannot be explained, such as a sense of sadness, anxiety or fear.  You might suffer from allergies, chronic tiredness, adrenal exhaustion, PMS, ovary or uterine problems.  This is due to pulling from your own physical reserves the energy needed to emotionally heal others.  As an emotional intuitive, you carry with you the gift of highest love.  Example: Mother Teresa  
b was 2nd and a, c.