Tuesday, November 29, 2011
I did this tonight as a way of releasing my rage. I did not share my loss this past Sept. And tonight I was told of the loss of my grandsons kitty. I keep sniffing back the tears. And yet the pain wants out. I miss my kitty. Crash is gone too. But I did not speak of it because I did not want to deal with the pain of it. But it will not go away tonight. Ebony was found dead at the front door yesterday morning.
She was a sweet kitty, she became apart of our family when Jeremy was maybe 2 or 3. She was a lovable calico kitty. And I know Jeremy's heart is broken. I feel his pain too.
Some people do not realize that a cat is a loved family member. And Do not realize the pain is equal to a person when they pass. I am just venting here as a way to release my feelings. I went right to painting the picture above earlier to vent my sorrow. It started out with words and scribbles till images appeared. Images were added and blended to tell a story now I will set back and see what story it tells.
I know well we are all only here for a brief time. And we bond. That is why it is so painful. Because we are first blessed with love and joy. Then sorrow and pain.
There are so many things I do not write and release. As it makes you feel vulnerable. We all keep things to our self. But really all we do is turn them into issues when we do. I find releasing them in art or words to be freeing and healing to the spirit.
As I have come so far now on my road to what I call a free spirit. I am only bound buy a few commitments. And I will close for now. I do not want to go on to a new subject.
I close with a farewell to Crash and Ebony.