Wednesday, March 30, 2011


This is only my thoughts put into words. My mind was busy Monday morning. Word flowed more than ever before.
I did a post on my other blog about life if you care to read it too. I will post a link at the bottom of this page.

Death is only a release of spirit. We are made up of 3 components, mind, body & soul. I find some people feel that there loved one was taken too early. We really do not understand why it was there time. But we need to accept this person was not meant to be here any longer. Accidents happen for a reason, we were not meant to understand. Same with suicide. For some reason that person was tormented in there mind to the point the soul agreed to let them go. Our spirit/soul is like an observer. Using our body and mind to live.  The soul is so strong it will almost always keep you here. But when It feels there is no chance of repair. It will have mercy on us and set us free.
If you can only think of them like the person who is suffering of cancer.  There mind is in that much pain. Really we can not know till we are in there place, what the pain for either one of them is truly like. I have seen some people feel like the lost one was selfish. But it is us who are, because we can not understand there pain. We feel they chose to leave us. But we must accept it was just there time. They could no longer deal with the life they had.

I know for a fact our soul is very strong. It wants to stay in our body. It has a way of talking you out of your wish to leave. Or it just clearly says, "no!"
But when it agrees that this life is over, you then are allowed to pass on.
Getting mad at this person for leaving is a natural part of grieving. But you have to put your self in that persons foot steps. And accept mental illness is painful. You have to learn to accept the fact, they are now free of pain. And learn to be happy for them. Because this was the best choice for them. They truly had an incurable illness. It was mental rather that physical. I feel we should be happy for them. Because a life full of torment in the mind is no life at all.
I know you may not agree with me. But I know what it is like to want to leave. But I have a soul that teaches me to learn ways to get well. And maybe I can help other want to stay here too. But most of all I want to help those left here to understand and forgive those who have passed on. Free them of guilt so they can move on. Tell them it is ok. You understand now. So they can truly rest in peace.

I am not an expert on grief. But I am learning there are 7 levels of grief. We do not always experience them all.
But the key to peace of mind is the last stage, which is acceptance.  Finally letting go, and be happy for them. You will then be free to move forward too. 

link to my first post.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Spiritual Wellness

The assignment this week for A Celebration of Wellness is  Spiritual Wellness
To me spirituality is your soul not really what your religion may be.

As far as Spiritual Wellness, I feel like when I did the page above a couple of years ago. It was the start of my spirit taking control of my life. It feels like I was born with this spirit, but was forced to suppress it.  My Moms ways were constricting on my spirit. And I feel as though it has been in a coma for so long. I allowed the flow of life to chose my path or others to push me on to new paths. I feel like I did not live the life I was meant to live. But I fail to change it. Even today I have been thinking of drastic changes, but I fail to take the first step. I have been researching "habit and familiarity". I find most stay with what they have, for fear of change. fear of being alone, fear of things could be worse. So we become creatures of habit.  I have been giving allot of thought to what is damaged and what is well. I know for a fact my body is damaged, my mind exploded, so it must be my soul is well. That has to be the reason I am still here. Still working on healing my self. Your mind can only take so much trauma and drama. This leads to physical illness and fatigue. But I think, it is your soul that steps in and tries to save you.
All this adds up to lessons learned.
 But why do I need so many lessons?  
Is it I fail to take action?
Is it knowledge I need to make it to the next level?
Many questions, many answers. It all sums up to I am who I am today because all the choices and issues are apart of me. And my soul can handle anything.

This is a collection of images I put together that spoke to me of spirit when I first read of this task. They were done over the last few years.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Solfeggio Frequencies

 I have been listing to 
Solfeggio Frequencies on U tube. After some thought, I realized this is why music has so much affect on us. It is more than the chosen words to a song. The tones have healing, happy, or sad tones. They affect how we feel and change our mood. If you research more into these sounds you find the MI 528 Hz is used by genetic biochemists to repair broken DNA -
The original sound frequencies were first used in Ancient Gregorian Chants.The Six Solfeggio Frequencies include:
UT 396 Hz Liberating Guilt and Fear
RE 417 Hz Undoing Situations and Facilitating Change
MI 528 Hz Transformation and Miracles (DNA Repair)
FA 639 Hz Connecting/Relationships
SOL 741 Hz Awakening Intuition
LA 852 Hz Returning to Spiritual Order

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Stillness and laughter

Laughter is nothing new, but it is some times forgotten. I found in my past few weeks of trauma and drama. It made me stop in my tracks. I was then allowed to still my mind. When I heard and saw others having so much fun. I could not help but join in the contagious laughter. It felt like the trauma perceived by my mind was being chipped away, piece by piece I felt it fall off my body.  From that point forward my soul was able to start taking control of my ego mind. I was still shaken. I still feel the damaging affect of a mind allowed to run a muck.  Trauma not only hurts you mentally but your body feels it psychically. This hurts your immune system, and allows illness into your life.

I am participating in A Celebration of Wellness with Rae for this weeks assignment called Wellness Art-ivity: Be Still. 
I find I have had much experience with stillness. But she said to do it in a different way and express it in an art activity in a different way. So rather than virtual art like I normal do. I did a drawing with paper and pencil.  I started looking for ideals. So on Monday I did a search and found a photo and video scroll down 2 posts or click here
I found movement.

On Tue I found laughter yoga click here
or scroll down to last post. This one has inspired me to want to find a laughter club or start one and become a certified instructor. So now I have a goal. Or a dream.

With all these clues I found laughter to be a way, that I must remember to use. Any time I am stressed or feel panic or fear and anxiety try to evolve in my mind. I will run to find some thing funny. Or just start laughing for no reason.

The photo above is my drawing.
Or Click here to see my haiku and digital creation of this weeks art work , on my other blog The Emptynester.  This is an example of my normal way of creation an art piece.
Thank you for reading and being a good friend.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Laughter Yoga

Today in my search for stillness
I find Laughter Yoga. : )
Benefits of Laughter Yoga

* Stimulates deep breathing;
* Reduces the levels of stress hormones epinephrine and cortisol;
* Lifts depression!
* Increases brain endorphins and serotonin that act as mood enhancers and natural pain-killers;
* Improves lung capacity & oxygen levels to the blood & circulation of both the cardiovascular & lymphatic system;
* Promotes better sleep;
* Internally massages the digestive tract promoting better digestion;
* Provides a safe aerobic workout. The heart rate increase in 1 minute of hearty laughter is equal to 10 minutes of rowing or jogging;
* Exercises facial and abdominal muscles;
* Boosts the immune system by increasing levels of anti-viral and anti-infection cells;
* Boosts self-confidence, creativity, improves communication skills and creates positive group energy;
* It’s fun!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Video Art

I was searching the word stillness, and came across this image of Kate Gilmore's My Love Is an Anchor (2004).

 The image spoke to me of the feeling of being trapped. Both in your mind and body. And how your mind can make you feel the fear as real as if you were trapped in a bucket. 

From the video I find I did not find a still. I found movement. And an unexpected clue.It is beating your self out of your trap. As in don't sit still and take it. Fight your way out.
What a great message.
My search was intended to find inspiration for an activity I am participating in A Celebration of Wellness with Rea for this weeks assignment called Wellness Art-ivity: Be Still

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

The art of play

Remember when we were children, play was using your creative imaginations to tell make believe story's.  Paint or draw things that was not real. As adults creating art can be healing, it is all about letting your inner child out to play again. There is no judgment or critique. Only pure joy. Colors show your mood. Or put you in a new mood. Funny picture make you smile. This is all healing for a wounded soul. Take some time to scribble, splash, swirl,  or drop some paint. Be a kid again.

Note: I use art rage to paint, and photo shop to add images to create this.

Monday, March 7, 2011


You would think by now I could recover from drama and trauma quicker. I have been on the road to recovery from depression for the last 5 years. I have learned so much in self help. I know problems are temporary. I know I am a soul in a body here to learn, share and grow in knowledge. But I am amazed how one incident can put you back to the point of wishing this life was over. It should all be irrelevant.  Nothing should be that bad. But some times you loose complete control of  your ego mind. You forget or are not strong enough to say stop. This it not that big of an issue. It can be solved. You just get lost in your own mind. You  cry and anger easy. You feel fear that can lead to panic or anxiety. 
But it ultimately leads to a choice. Do I stay broken or do I pick myself up and get back on the road to freedom to enjoy this life. To savor a moment is a blessing. To share this moment with some one you love is truly a gift. It is hard to put away negative thoughts. It is like a war in your mind. This war leaves you a victim if you do not JUST SAY STOP! You need to fight hard with positive thoughts. Some times you are too week. You get to the point of hopelessness. You wonder why. Why me. But at that point. You do not realize it is not as bad, as you have allowed your mind to convince you it is.  
I know I should just take a deep breath. and start telling my self I am strong, I can conquer any thing.