Friday, February 11, 2011

Under the weather

I feel like Tony, the Italian stallion. He is 25 years old and still is surprised each day. He wakes to find that he is still here.  Most days are good. But then days like yesterday and today. Are filled with exhaustion, fatigue, drained of all life. Falling in and out of sleep. Unable to do any thing. Wishing some one would take care of you. Sweep you off your feet and love you. Any thing! But yet you sit. You are unable to pull your self up. Unable to write a word. Unable to care for your self, let alone any one else. You wonder how did this happen. You were doing so well. Your mind was writing away. Did you over do ? Is it illness. Or is is a relapse of depression?
As I sit here in a daze words start rushing in.
Oh my, a poem !
I am not a poet yet the words do flow.

Is this hindsight or yet to come?

I rant and rave an feel a slave
I just forgot every word I just thought.
They were awesome and dear.
New words come here

Equal and enduring, a love I may never know.
Forever cheering, I am left tearing
My heart is silent for a love that never fails
One in which all that matters
Is me & you
A love so true

Full of passion, never ending days of hugs
No need for any thing but us.

Did I go through life with blinders on ?
Did you walk right past me?
Or are you yet to come?
Are you here? Yet I do not see!

Am I cold and blind?
I do feel you in my mind
My love, my life, my reason to live.

You are my best friend
My soul mate
Did we ever date?
As I stay up late
I think of you!
I dream of you!
And those times of endless love.

Title Missing Him A poem by E


  1. I think a lot of people are going through 'the blues,' 'the blahs'....whatever you want to call it. I think the weather might have a lot to do with it....hardly uplifting and inspiring one to feel joyful or positive. It too will pass. I like your poem E....

  2. I don't know what to say here but feel I have to acknowledge having read and enjoyed this post, especially the first part because it's melancholy and that's the way I feel too...

  3. Winter blues! It's too darn cold and so much snow about. Yuk!
    Hang in there Ernie, the sun will shine again.

  4. I hope you are feeling a bit better. I know severe weather can definitely leave a person feeling blue. Hang in there!